Forgiving myself first or you?

Trustworthy is the most valuable thing where you can't buy it with money...
The question comes when if you just lose someone's trust one day, and all you want is explaination,
will you shame that person on what he/she did to you?or are you going to keep quiet?
Well,i had tried the toughest part by keeping it to myself..and it didnt work out
Now..i just have to bear with what i did, and If i could forgive myself...
yes,i'm full of disappointment...i still want that trust..and i'll forgive you if you could just admit it just now..
i know it's not that simple..and it's not easy to say sorry neither..
This is what i meant when sorry meant a lot...
Just like when i first lied to you...i was so sorry...and all i could do is to ask forgiveness from you..even i have to say a thousand sorry...but since then, you didnt trust me anymore...
How bout you??you didn't even have the courage to apologise..so why blame me when you did more than me?
Everyone has a choice, includes u, and people made the best out of it..
Even the sandman in Spiderman 3 apologise when he killed his uncle,
He tried and hunt down that person who did so, and even killed the wrong guy,
In the end, Spiderman forgives him after he heard his explaination...
so why can't you?you rather hurt me with your words??
are you going to make the same mistake as him?
when he's uncle tried to stop sandman and said
"why dont you just put down the gun and go back"
Sandman can have the car that he want to escape, but there's no need for him to kill spiderman's uncle
he did gave him a chance to undo his bad deed
but he didnt use it properly and shot him...

Well, I just hope you learn this and it is practically important next time for you,
It's from me and your beloved friends..
Think twice before you make a decision,
Think wise before something happen.

HAizz...If you could just say sorry one day...