In the evening, small shadows dance around,
On my way home, I pass through the roads,
That day with you and this kind of scenery
It was brought to me
A treasure for just two of us
The promise that binds my heart
is important even now
Someday may be i will meet you
and then it will be fullfilled that day
as long as i believe i'll be waiting
I wonder where you could be now,
That promise, i wonder if it's still in your heart,
The seasons have changed, but it doesn't change that time
I wish THAT it is you
Even if your face fades,
that promise is in my heart, even now,
It burns passionately within me
Where our hearts are tied together
As long as i believe i'll be waiting
If i should meet you, i want to ask that promise softly,
To return to the two of us from that day,
As long as i believe i'll be waiting.
Friday, June 29, 2007
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
为什么相爱的人不能够在一起
每当我在与你相起你的时候
不知道你在哪头
心里面有许多许的爱与愁
不知是否是永远的伤口
当你扔下我一个人说走就走
其实我也知道你很难受
只是这个世界把你我分两头
割断情思与占有
想起你我相爱的时候
想起只能在电话里头
我真的好伤悲好难受
不知道什么时候才是尽头
为什么相爱的人不能够在一起
偏偏换成了回忆
我带你的照片
找到海角天边
希望你会在出现
我就算忘记时间也忘记你
也忘不了我们有过的甜蜜
为什么相爱的人不能够在一起
不知道你在哪头
心里面有许多许的爱与愁
不知是否是永远的伤口
当你扔下我一个人说走就走
其实我也知道你很难受
只是这个世界把你我分两头
割断情思与占有
想起你我相爱的时候
想起只能在电话里头
我真的好伤悲好难受
不知道什么时候才是尽头
为什么相爱的人不能够在一起
偏偏换成了回忆
我带你的照片
找到海角天边
希望你会在出现
我就算忘记时间也忘记你
也忘不了我们有过的甜蜜
为什么相爱的人不能够在一起
Saturday, June 9, 2007
I Can Recognise That Face
I still remember how we get to know each other..the day that i'll never want to forget...yup!!and in those days..you were always that cute and innoncent, always reaching out to ppl when anybody faced problems, always kind towards small kids and i know you just love them..it's rare and not many people could do what you did..
After knowing you for some time, i found out that deep inside you, you have lots of sorrows and problems that you can't solved, you have great disapppointments and stuffs...and Guess what, you amazed me bcoz you're not only a nice gal, but also a tough one..Well, Going through all these may be tough..but you need not change the way you treat others even though you know they are going to hurt you..you just have to be you..because it's you that makes the difference...we can find only one unique YOU..think of what you had done for yourself and your family, even your friends..many of them cherish what you did, some may not..But now, you chose to give up because of some that they don't appreciate what you have done??but how bout those who appreciates you?you rather disappoint your friends??
Promises are meant to be broken??okay..that's not the point..but i miss you everyday..it just like the old days where we got disappointed when we always couldn't make it to see each other..this feeling is still stuck in me..i couldn't even shake it off and you're asking me to leave..you know i won't because we had promised each other..or have you forgotten already?
Still remember this phrase;
"we may not be siblings by blood, but we are siblings by heart"
It was enough said to touched my heart..
Nowadays, there is a gap between us..but is that gap matters that much to you?and are you going to treat me this way because of this?hmmm..perhaps to you, it's the best thing for NOW..but it'll never do good to any of us if you are going to be like this for the rest of the time..why make your life more complicated than ever?why can't you let go your problems behind?well i may be here for you..but i know being here for you can never satisfy what you want..not even solved your problems...because that's human's attitude..we can never get satisfy with what we want..
Coming to the word 'satisfaction'..yeap..There was once I knew that "attachment brings suffering"..but why am i still falling in to this?I'm sure you know this too, it's our emotion that comes over our thoughts..and these emotions were somehow linked to many expectations n wantings between us..Even we knew this from the start, we still falling into it..maybe we weren't ready to control our thoughts than our emotions..maybe just not ready to go for this relationship..and I always believed that love won't hurts, if it hurts, it's not love...To me, there is only one reason that a couple gets into a relationship that is loving each other..and they always come up with many excuses when they asked for a breakup..
Trust me, even i know we could not get back to what we want..i'll never forget that i loved you..I don't wan to lose a friend..and i have the intention to keep you as my friend...I promise i'll still say "I love you" often because you reminded me that "people tend to forget" and "love won't fade unless it's you who want it to"..i shall remember this..
Just hope you'll take care yourself, and if you might just need me one day..you could still find me..because i AM ready for you here..just don't treat me as a stranger and i'll be happy for it..
I'll never forget that smile on your face..
After knowing you for some time, i found out that deep inside you, you have lots of sorrows and problems that you can't solved, you have great disapppointments and stuffs...and Guess what, you amazed me bcoz you're not only a nice gal, but also a tough one..Well, Going through all these may be tough..but you need not change the way you treat others even though you know they are going to hurt you..you just have to be you..because it's you that makes the difference...we can find only one unique YOU..think of what you had done for yourself and your family, even your friends..many of them cherish what you did, some may not..But now, you chose to give up because of some that they don't appreciate what you have done??but how bout those who appreciates you?you rather disappoint your friends??
Promises are meant to be broken??okay..that's not the point..but i miss you everyday..it just like the old days where we got disappointed when we always couldn't make it to see each other..this feeling is still stuck in me..i couldn't even shake it off and you're asking me to leave..you know i won't because we had promised each other..or have you forgotten already?
Still remember this phrase;
"we may not be siblings by blood, but we are siblings by heart"
It was enough said to touched my heart..
Nowadays, there is a gap between us..but is that gap matters that much to you?and are you going to treat me this way because of this?hmmm..perhaps to you, it's the best thing for NOW..but it'll never do good to any of us if you are going to be like this for the rest of the time..why make your life more complicated than ever?why can't you let go your problems behind?well i may be here for you..but i know being here for you can never satisfy what you want..not even solved your problems...because that's human's attitude..we can never get satisfy with what we want..
Coming to the word 'satisfaction'..yeap..There was once I knew that "attachment brings suffering"..but why am i still falling in to this?I'm sure you know this too, it's our emotion that comes over our thoughts..and these emotions were somehow linked to many expectations n wantings between us..Even we knew this from the start, we still falling into it..maybe we weren't ready to control our thoughts than our emotions..maybe just not ready to go for this relationship..and I always believed that love won't hurts, if it hurts, it's not love...To me, there is only one reason that a couple gets into a relationship that is loving each other..and they always come up with many excuses when they asked for a breakup..
Trust me, even i know we could not get back to what we want..i'll never forget that i loved you..I don't wan to lose a friend..and i have the intention to keep you as my friend...I promise i'll still say "I love you" often because you reminded me that "people tend to forget" and "love won't fade unless it's you who want it to"..i shall remember this..
Just hope you'll take care yourself, and if you might just need me one day..you could still find me..because i AM ready for you here..just don't treat me as a stranger and i'll be happy for it..
I'll never forget that smile on your face..
Monday, June 4, 2007
More Dhamma Stories
okay..this may seems boring to you guys after posting a few dhamma stories here..but somehow, i find it nice because it always appears right in front of us and we are always trap in the same old circle..the cause of it?--our mind and wanting, the effects?--suffering..There are two types of suffering... Suffering that brings more suffering... and Suffering that brings an End of the suffering (Wisdom)!The Buddha only points the Way, we have to walk it by ourselves.
Three more stories by Achan Chah...
Fish Trap
If you see clearly the harm in the benefit of something, you won't have to wait for others to tell you about it. Consider the story of the fisherman who finds something in his fish trap. He knows something is in it because he can hear it flopping about inside. Thinking it's a fish; he reaches his hand into the trap, only to grab hold of a different kind of animal. He can't see it, so he's not sure what it is. It could be an eel, but it could also be a snake. If he throws it away, he may regret it, for if it turns out to be in eel, he'll have lost something nice for dinner. On the other hand, if he keeps on holding onto it and it turns out to be a snake, it may bite him. He's just not sure. But his desire is so strong that he holds on, just in case it's an eel. The minute he brings it out and sees that it's a snake, however, he doesn't hesitate to fling it away from himself. He doesn't have to wait for someone to call out, "Hey, it's a snake! Let go!" The site of the snake tells him what to do more clearly than words could ever do. Why? Because he sees the danger - snakes can bite and make you very sick or kill you. Who has to tell him about that? In the same way, if we practice until we see things as they are, we won't meddle with things that are harmful.
Snake
People want happiness, not suffering. But in fact happiness is just a refined form of suffering. Suffering itself is the coarse form. We can compare them to a snake. The snake's head is unhappiness. The snake's tail is happiness. The snake's head is really dangerous. It has the poisonous fangs. If we touch it, it'll bite right away. But never mind the head? Even if we go and hold onto the tail, it will turn around and bite us just the same, because both the head and tail belong to the one snake. Likewise happiness and unhappiness, pleasure and sadness, arise from the same snake: wanting. So when we're happy, the mind isn't really peaceful. For example, when we get the things we like, such as wealth, prestige, praise or happiness, we become pleased, but the mind remains uneasy for fear of losing them. That very fear isn't a peaceful state. Later we may really lose those things, then we truly suffer. So if we're not aware, even when happy, suffering is imminent. It's just like grabbing the snake's tail - if we don't let go, it'll bit. So be it the snake's conditions they're all just characteristics of the Wheel of Existence, of endless change.
Old Liar
Our habits try to deceive us over and over again, but if we remain aware of it, we will eventually be able to ignore them altogether. It's like having an old person come around and tell us the same old lies time after time. When we realize what he's up to, we won't believe him any longer. But it takes a long time before we realize it, because deception is always there.
Three more stories by Achan Chah...
Fish Trap
If you see clearly the harm in the benefit of something, you won't have to wait for others to tell you about it. Consider the story of the fisherman who finds something in his fish trap. He knows something is in it because he can hear it flopping about inside. Thinking it's a fish; he reaches his hand into the trap, only to grab hold of a different kind of animal. He can't see it, so he's not sure what it is. It could be an eel, but it could also be a snake. If he throws it away, he may regret it, for if it turns out to be in eel, he'll have lost something nice for dinner. On the other hand, if he keeps on holding onto it and it turns out to be a snake, it may bite him. He's just not sure. But his desire is so strong that he holds on, just in case it's an eel. The minute he brings it out and sees that it's a snake, however, he doesn't hesitate to fling it away from himself. He doesn't have to wait for someone to call out, "Hey, it's a snake! Let go!" The site of the snake tells him what to do more clearly than words could ever do. Why? Because he sees the danger - snakes can bite and make you very sick or kill you. Who has to tell him about that? In the same way, if we practice until we see things as they are, we won't meddle with things that are harmful.
Snake
People want happiness, not suffering. But in fact happiness is just a refined form of suffering. Suffering itself is the coarse form. We can compare them to a snake. The snake's head is unhappiness. The snake's tail is happiness. The snake's head is really dangerous. It has the poisonous fangs. If we touch it, it'll bite right away. But never mind the head? Even if we go and hold onto the tail, it will turn around and bite us just the same, because both the head and tail belong to the one snake. Likewise happiness and unhappiness, pleasure and sadness, arise from the same snake: wanting. So when we're happy, the mind isn't really peaceful. For example, when we get the things we like, such as wealth, prestige, praise or happiness, we become pleased, but the mind remains uneasy for fear of losing them. That very fear isn't a peaceful state. Later we may really lose those things, then we truly suffer. So if we're not aware, even when happy, suffering is imminent. It's just like grabbing the snake's tail - if we don't let go, it'll bit. So be it the snake's conditions they're all just characteristics of the Wheel of Existence, of endless change.
Old Liar
Our habits try to deceive us over and over again, but if we remain aware of it, we will eventually be able to ignore them altogether. It's like having an old person come around and tell us the same old lies time after time. When we realize what he's up to, we won't believe him any longer. But it takes a long time before we realize it, because deception is always there.
The Trap of the Senses
If we see cleary, how actually sufferings come to us... we can see cleary also the cause of our sufferings... Expectations, hoping things to be the same, hoping things to become better...
But many times, things happened in the opposite way... When we get what we want, we are happy... If the opposite happened, we are sad...
We became the slave of our own emotions which dependent on the external things (people, fame, money etc)... these processes occur again and again .......It will never stop... and we will never find the True Happiness... We are trapped, we lost our freedom..
Can we stop this process? Can we free ourselves from this circle? Let's think deeply about this...
This article is written by Achan Chah
The Buddha talked about desire and the six things by which desire is gratified: sights, sounds, smells, tastes, touch and mind-objects. Desire and lust for happiness, for suffering, for good, for evil and so on, pervade everything!
Sights... there isn't any sight that's quite the same as that of a woman. Isn't that so? Doesn't a really attractive woman make you want to look? One with a really attractive figure comes walking along, you can't help but stare! How about sounds? There's no sound that grips you more than that of a woman. It pierces your heart! Smell is the same; a woman's fragrance is the most alluring of all. There's no other smell that's quite the same. Taste -- even the taste of the most delicious food cannot compare with that of a woman. Touch is similar; when you caress a woman you are stunned, intoxicated and sent pinning all around.
There was once a famous master of magical spells from Taxila in ancient India. He taught his disciple all his knowledge of charms and incantations. When the disciple was well-versed and ready to fare on his own, he left with this final instruction from his teacher, "I have taught you all that I know of spells, incantations and protective verses. Creatures with sharp teeth, antlers or horns, and even big tusks, you have no need to fear. You will be guarded from all of these, I can guarantee that. However, there is only one thing that I cannot ensure protection against, and that is the charms of a woman. I can not help you here. There's no spell for protection against this one, you'll have to look after yourself."
Mental objects arise in the mind. They are born out of desire: desire for valuable possessions, desire to be rich, and just restless seeking after things in general. This type of greed isn't all that deep or strong, it isn't enough to make you faint or lose control. However, when sexual desire arises, you're thrown off balance and lose your control. You would even forget those raised and brought you up -- your own parents!
The Buddha taught that the objects of our senses are a trap -- a trap of Mara's. Mara should be understood as something which harms us. The trap is something which binds us, the same as a snare. It's a trap of Mara's, a hunter's snare, and the hunter is Mara.
If animals are caught in the hunter's trap, it's a sorrowful predicament. They are caught fast and held waiting for the owner of the trap. Have you ever snared birds? The snare springs and "boop" -- caught by the neck! A good strong string now holds it fast. Wherever the bird flies, it cannot escape. It flies here and flies there, but it's held tight waiting for the owner of the snare. When the hunter comes along, that's it -- the bird is struck with fear, there's no escape!
The trap of sights, sounds, smells, tastes, touch and mind-objects is the same. They catch us and bind us fast. If you attach to the senses, you're the same as a fish caught on a hook. When the fisherman comes, struggle all you want, but you can't get loose. Actually, you're not caught like a fish, it's more like a frog -- a frog gulps down the whole hook right to its guts, a fish just gets caught in its mouth.
Anyone attached to the senses is the same. Like a drunk whose liver is not yet destroyed -- he doesn't know when he has had enough. He continues to indulge and drink carelessly. He's caught and later suffers illness and pain.
A man comes walking along a road. He is very thirsty from his journey and is craving for a drink of water. The owner of the water says, "you can drink this water if you like; the color is good, the smell is good, the taste is good, but if you drink it you will become ill. I must tell you this beforehand, it'll make you sick enough to die or nearly die." The thirsty man does not listen. He's as thirsty as a person after an operation who has been denied water for seven days -- he's crying for water!
It's the same with a person thirsting after the senses. The Buddha taught that they are poisonous -- sights, sounds, smells, tastes, touch and mind-objects are poison; they are a dangerous trap. But this man is thirsty and doesn't listen; because of his thirst he is in tears, crying, "Give me water, no matter how painful the consequences, let me drink!" So he dips out a bit and swallows it down finding it very tasty. He drinks his fill and gets so sick that he almost dies. He didn't listen because of his overpowering desire.
This is how it is for a person caught in the pleasures of the senses. He drinks in sights, sounds, smells, tastes, touch and mind-objects -- they are all very delicious! So he drinks without stopping and there he remains, stuck fast until the day he dies.
But many times, things happened in the opposite way... When we get what we want, we are happy... If the opposite happened, we are sad...
We became the slave of our own emotions which dependent on the external things (people, fame, money etc)... these processes occur again and again .......It will never stop... and we will never find the True Happiness... We are trapped, we lost our freedom..
Can we stop this process? Can we free ourselves from this circle? Let's think deeply about this...
This article is written by Achan Chah
The Buddha talked about desire and the six things by which desire is gratified: sights, sounds, smells, tastes, touch and mind-objects. Desire and lust for happiness, for suffering, for good, for evil and so on, pervade everything!
Sights... there isn't any sight that's quite the same as that of a woman. Isn't that so? Doesn't a really attractive woman make you want to look? One with a really attractive figure comes walking along, you can't help but stare! How about sounds? There's no sound that grips you more than that of a woman. It pierces your heart! Smell is the same; a woman's fragrance is the most alluring of all. There's no other smell that's quite the same. Taste -- even the taste of the most delicious food cannot compare with that of a woman. Touch is similar; when you caress a woman you are stunned, intoxicated and sent pinning all around.
There was once a famous master of magical spells from Taxila in ancient India. He taught his disciple all his knowledge of charms and incantations. When the disciple was well-versed and ready to fare on his own, he left with this final instruction from his teacher, "I have taught you all that I know of spells, incantations and protective verses. Creatures with sharp teeth, antlers or horns, and even big tusks, you have no need to fear. You will be guarded from all of these, I can guarantee that. However, there is only one thing that I cannot ensure protection against, and that is the charms of a woman. I can not help you here. There's no spell for protection against this one, you'll have to look after yourself."
Mental objects arise in the mind. They are born out of desire: desire for valuable possessions, desire to be rich, and just restless seeking after things in general. This type of greed isn't all that deep or strong, it isn't enough to make you faint or lose control. However, when sexual desire arises, you're thrown off balance and lose your control. You would even forget those raised and brought you up -- your own parents!
The Buddha taught that the objects of our senses are a trap -- a trap of Mara's. Mara should be understood as something which harms us. The trap is something which binds us, the same as a snare. It's a trap of Mara's, a hunter's snare, and the hunter is Mara.
If animals are caught in the hunter's trap, it's a sorrowful predicament. They are caught fast and held waiting for the owner of the trap. Have you ever snared birds? The snare springs and "boop" -- caught by the neck! A good strong string now holds it fast. Wherever the bird flies, it cannot escape. It flies here and flies there, but it's held tight waiting for the owner of the snare. When the hunter comes along, that's it -- the bird is struck with fear, there's no escape!
The trap of sights, sounds, smells, tastes, touch and mind-objects is the same. They catch us and bind us fast. If you attach to the senses, you're the same as a fish caught on a hook. When the fisherman comes, struggle all you want, but you can't get loose. Actually, you're not caught like a fish, it's more like a frog -- a frog gulps down the whole hook right to its guts, a fish just gets caught in its mouth.
Anyone attached to the senses is the same. Like a drunk whose liver is not yet destroyed -- he doesn't know when he has had enough. He continues to indulge and drink carelessly. He's caught and later suffers illness and pain.
A man comes walking along a road. He is very thirsty from his journey and is craving for a drink of water. The owner of the water says, "you can drink this water if you like; the color is good, the smell is good, the taste is good, but if you drink it you will become ill. I must tell you this beforehand, it'll make you sick enough to die or nearly die." The thirsty man does not listen. He's as thirsty as a person after an operation who has been denied water for seven days -- he's crying for water!
It's the same with a person thirsting after the senses. The Buddha taught that they are poisonous -- sights, sounds, smells, tastes, touch and mind-objects are poison; they are a dangerous trap. But this man is thirsty and doesn't listen; because of his thirst he is in tears, crying, "Give me water, no matter how painful the consequences, let me drink!" So he dips out a bit and swallows it down finding it very tasty. He drinks his fill and gets so sick that he almost dies. He didn't listen because of his overpowering desire.
This is how it is for a person caught in the pleasures of the senses. He drinks in sights, sounds, smells, tastes, touch and mind-objects -- they are all very delicious! So he drinks without stopping and there he remains, stuck fast until the day he dies.
Saturday, June 2, 2007
Real Or Not
Circus??haha..when was the last time i visit circus???errr..standard 2?haha...okay..last fri,i was chatting with jin ming...the kuku fella...hhahaha...and he's famous for crapping...lol..and guess what...he asked me to teman him to circus??okay..i thought it's meant to be said ONLY..and he said he'll pick me up at 6smtg..so i didn't take his words for real..and u know what??he came at 6.30!!omg..and i was bathing at tat time..my mum told me a fren came and find me??i was like huh??who in the hell will find me at this time??so early??okay..i quickly change myself and ran out and i saw him..so i just went in the car..and i asked him...
"weii, really arrr??circus??or you wan to go jalan jalan ny"
he replied, "yala, u think i'm jk with you arr"
*he showed me the tickets*..
haha...okay...this time it's real...we reached the place at 7pm but the show starts at 8pm..so we went opposite to condinental and makan...i belanja him(since he's belanja-ing me for the ticket)lol...it's kinda weird 2 guys paktor-ing there...haha..
Okay, just before we enter, we think twice again and asked each other, "oi,really wan to enter ar",both of us laughing away...and all we could see are small kids and their parents??and two of us just feel it's weird..how come we dun see anyone who's around our age..lol
*deciding*...
and suddenly,"aiyah enter larr"..haha..and we entered..n guys..we really sat there for 2 n a half hours...OMG!!we finish the whole thing...okay, there were acrobats,stunt shows,clowns?,animals(the dog was just cute)....etc.
Later on, we planned to go to jonker for some cendol,and on the way, i met Denis Tan?coincidence...and we stopped by at Kota for a while to say hi to some of our frens..i'd even saw e-shynn,collin,christopher,crystal n another gal..duhh~(dunno who's tat)..errr..met derrick's group(the 10 of them,dota for sure,haha..usual routine for them), and lichia's gang..After meeting them, we went straight to jonker..jinming took 2 bowls of durian cendol and i only took 1..lol..he sure knows how to eat huh?and that cendol is just mmm~~..itchiban!!haha...we went jalan-jalan in jonker until 11 smtg..lol...the night is still young leyyy..but many stalls were closing edi..so we planned to go MCD at DP?lol..guess what, i think we got fate to meet more people??and we saw jeremy,kaiyang paktor with huan yin?(who told me they broke off edi),soonlye with kia ling,xin kun n his gang...but we didnt stay long and went back..okay, we met quite a lot of ppl in that 2 hours...seems like everyone is having their holidays now..n they're enjoying while they still could..not like ppl in taylors n sunway...no holiday for u??so sad..haha..no offend ya..
"weii, really arrr??circus??or you wan to go jalan jalan ny"
he replied, "yala, u think i'm jk with you arr"
*he showed me the tickets*..
haha...okay...this time it's real...we reached the place at 7pm but the show starts at 8pm..so we went opposite to condinental and makan...i belanja him(since he's belanja-ing me for the ticket)lol...it's kinda weird 2 guys paktor-ing there...haha..
Okay, just before we enter, we think twice again and asked each other, "oi,really wan to enter ar",both of us laughing away...and all we could see are small kids and their parents??and two of us just feel it's weird..how come we dun see anyone who's around our age..lol
*deciding*...
and suddenly,"aiyah enter larr"..haha..and we entered..n guys..we really sat there for 2 n a half hours...OMG!!we finish the whole thing...okay, there were acrobats,stunt shows,clowns?,animals(the dog was just cute)....etc.
Later on, we planned to go to jonker for some cendol,and on the way, i met Denis Tan?coincidence...and we stopped by at Kota for a while to say hi to some of our frens..i'd even saw e-shynn,collin,christopher,crystal n another gal..duhh~(dunno who's tat)..errr..met derrick's group(the 10 of them,dota for sure,haha..usual routine for them), and lichia's gang..After meeting them, we went straight to jonker..jinming took 2 bowls of durian cendol and i only took 1..lol..he sure knows how to eat huh?and that cendol is just mmm~~..itchiban!!haha...we went jalan-jalan in jonker until 11 smtg..lol...the night is still young leyyy..but many stalls were closing edi..so we planned to go MCD at DP?lol..guess what, i think we got fate to meet more people??and we saw jeremy,kaiyang paktor with huan yin?(who told me they broke off edi),soonlye with kia ling,xin kun n his gang...but we didnt stay long and went back..okay, we met quite a lot of ppl in that 2 hours...seems like everyone is having their holidays now..n they're enjoying while they still could..not like ppl in taylors n sunway...no holiday for u??so sad..haha..no offend ya..
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